Authenticity, Leadership, Mindfulness, Well Being
A tip for releasing negative self talk
As human beings we are masters at creating narratives. We create colorful stories that have the capacity to stir up emotion. And that can be very wonderful and inspiring. I’ve often said that emotions are the elixir of life. The problem with our innate gift for story telling is that we often tend to cling to the negative and painful narratives and replay them repeatedly in our minds. If she just hadn’t said that. If I just hadn’t done that. Then the relationship wouldn’t have been ruined. I wouldn’t be in such dire straits. We create headlines of negativity And off this rumination we create high level headlines, scripts that sound like: I am always getting taken advantage of. I am estranged from this relative. I am always making bad choices. I am bad at leadership. I am horrible at relationships. I am not assertive enough. I am weak. I am not hardworking enough to pull that off. I am overweight. I am stupid. I am never going to get ahead in life. I am damaged. I am a victim. I am powerless to change anything. Just let it go, right? We’re often told by self help experts that we have to let go of these negative scripts. Release the negative self talk, they exclaim! But how? Especially when they’re so ingrained. Many of these stories have been kicking around in our brains for decades. Maybe I’m crazy for saying this but “Let that sh%t go” sounds trite and condescending. If it was that easy, I would have done it by now, is what I often think when I’m met with platitudes like that. I often speak about the power of language with folks I am coaching, and direct coaching clients to pay particular attention to anything that comes after the phrase “I am.” Why? Because words are literally magic. And they have the capacity to expand the possibilities in our lives or close them down for good. Words, whether spoken out loud or spoken in our head, are incredibly powerful. If you’ve ever read or heard of the book, The Four Agreements, Ruiz speaks to this when he addresses the first agreement – Be impeccable with your word, who says: “You can measure the impeccability of your word by your level of self-love. How much you love yourself and how you feel about yourself are directly proportionate to the quality and integrity of your word.” Beware of the negativity bait and switch So what would impeccability of word look like as it pertains to releasing negative self-talk? Would it be the converse? Instead of I am not weak, perhaps the answer lies in the reverse – I am powerful. That would be convenient, wouldn’t it? Just a simple bait and switch should be enough to do the trick, right? In my experience it’s tough to go from one extreme to the other. We as humans also have an animalistic ability to sniff out the falseness of a message. If […]
August 23, 2023
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4.8 min read
Emotional Intelligence, Mindfulness, Well Being
Lean into the restlessness, rather than run
Today’s blog is hitting on a topic near and dear to my heart. It reminds me of the proverbial phrase, “Idle hands are the devil’s workshop.” If you grew up in the South like I did, you’ve probably heard a version of this in your formative years. And if you didn’t – welcome to my world, filled with many such sayings like this one and “There are a million ways to skin a dead armadillo.” (the latter of which we won’t be focusing on today just in case you were wondering…) Idle hands aren’t the problem But we do live in this way – idle hands are to be avoided at all costs. I’ve often wondered why. Maybe, deep down, we’re afraid of calm. Fearful of it even. Silence can be terrifying if we’re not used to it. When I first started practicing mindfulness and meditation, I heard horrible stories about adverse reactions folks were having upon trying a few minutes of meditation. It scared me as a facilitator. Panic attacks. Participants reporting they felt their skin was crawling. And when I’ve felt forced to sit for a long time at a meditation retreat, I’ve often experienced similar sensations. Feelings like boredom can be unbearable, especially if we always have the constant companion of the smartphone and scrolling to keep us company. That’s the annoying problem with mindfulness practices like meditation. They’re difficult only because we must sit with ourselves. We are finally alone with ourselves. And when you’re alone and have nothing to distract you, you have no choice but to feel what you’re feeling. Human beings are masters at avoiding feeling the difficult things. We become workaholics, alcoholics, shopoholics, foodoholics instead. I’ve even seen working out become an obsession. I have a friend who manages this dance better than anything I’ve ever seen. She runs a successful business, she’s always on the go. She stays in perpetual motion. We have a party and she’s on her phone responding to a text, in-between bouncing around from guest to guest engaging them in banter, then running to the kitchen to straighten things, helping with the dishes (which I greatly appreciate by the way!). I don’t think I’ve ever seen her sit still. There’s a look in her eyes that I’ve picked up on, she’s scanning the room looking for the next thing she can do, straighten, clean, or put away. I get this compulsion all too well because quite often I’ve been this person. If you look hard enough in those moments, you’ll notice what’s sitting underneath the surface is a restlessness. An emptiness. The restlessness is a clue – We’re really running on empty I’ve been feeling quite a bit of this myself lately, so I know. The difference is I’ve finally learned it’s not a sign that I need to speed up. That’s how I used to handle it. I would find ways to occupy myself, anything I could do to keep that empty, restless, grasping, sticky feeling […]
July 27, 2023
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4.9 min read
Leadership, Mindfulness, Relationships
How Trustworthy is Your Leadership?
In a class on leadership I was facilitating last week, we ended up talking a lot about trust. A worthwhile endeavor for sure. I recall years ago when I read Stephen Covey’s book, The Speed of Trust, which highlighted how building an effective foundation of trust enables work to happen much more quickly, efficiently and effortlessly than it ever would if trust was lacking. A low trust environment can lead to burnout When we think about the relationships in our life – personal or professional, we often evaluate them based on whether we think we can trust the person. “I don’t trust him as far as I can throw him.” This is especially important if you’ve ever worked for a leader you didn’t think you could trust. My virtual office is often full of career and leadership coaching clients experiencing burn out due to prolonged exposure to an untrustworthy leader or team environment. And it takes me back to times in my career where I felt like I was walking on pins and needles all the time, lest I upset the apple cart. It takes a toll. Especially on our bodies, as we often find ourselves in a state of hyper alert all of the time. The fight or flight response is constantly triggered, stress hormones like cortisol are constantly pulsing through our bodies, and at some point we finally crash and burn. A simple equation for building trust Folks often pontificate about the importance of building trust, but few get into the nitty gritty of how you do it. And it’s more than just being knowledgeable in a certain skill or topic area. Competency and credibility are important, but it isn’t the whole equation. And there is an equation for trust by the way. I ran across this simple trust equation years ago, and here it is: C + R + I _______ S.O. The trust equation explained C stands for Credibility. Or in other words, “I can trust what she says about x…”. Do you know your stuff? Have you built the technical skills and competencies for the task at hand? Do you have the necessary leadership skills and competencies to guide your team, things like giving feedback? Setting a vision? Delegation? Holding others accountable? R stands for Reliability. Or in other words, “I can trust she will follow through.” What’s your level of integrity when it comes to follow through currently? Do you make promises you have no intention of keeping? Or perhaps you have every intention but you find yourself saying yes to every request that crosses your path. You overpromise and underdeliver. Good intentions are wonderful but will ultimately snooker you if you can’t come up with the follow through. I stands for Intimacy. Or in other words, “I can trust I can come to them with my concerns and problems.” To what extent are you an approachable leader? Do others seek you out for your counsel and your advice? How effective are you at […]
June 20, 2023
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5.4 min read
Authenticity, Leadership, Life Direction and Purpose, Mindfulness
Your values matter in life and leadership. Here’s why.
A discussion about values can often seem like an artificial conversation. It’s a nice to have, not a need to have, right? Something I do once at a training course because the facilitator forces me to do it, and then I shove the paper they’re written on in a desk drawer and forget about it and go on with the rest of my business. Values can help or hinder our growth and development What’s interesting to understand about values is they can help us or hinder us. And that might seem counterintuitive, because aren’t values a good thing? The answer is, it depends. Let’s say I value accuracy. If I place too much emphasis on accuracy, I might find myself overworking reports, overworking data, to an extent that’s unnecessary for the task at hand. Many of us trip ourselves up this way and forget the tried and tested 80/20 rule. One value that I tend to hear a lot from clients is trust. Trust is an interesting one because we often gravitate towards it if we’ve been hurt in the past. Maybe our parents got divorced and it eroded our trust in them. Maybe a spouse or partner cheated on us, and the result was devastating, we can never trust again. Maybe a business partner stole money from us, or a family member wronged us. The list goes on and on. Based on these life experiences we then conclude that trust is the most important thing in any relationship, and we cling onto it for dear life. We suspiciously look for signs that someone might be untrustworthy. We fear that our worst nightmare will come true, and then it does. We reinforce this idea by telling ourselves things like, “the only person I can trust is myself.” Fear based values versus conscious based values Don’t misunderstand me, it’s not wrong to value trust. But it’s worth thinking about the relationship you have with your values. Did I consciously choose to value trust because it’s important to me, or am I desperately clinging to this value out of fear? And if I’m clinging to a value out of fear, how might that be blinding me? How might I then be unconsciously creating the situation I fear? For years I clung to authenticity. It was my biggest personal value. And when I think about my personal history, that makes perfect sense. I grew up in a household where conformity was valued, and I often felt like I could never be myself or loved for who I am. I had to fight very hard for the right to just be myself. I even prided myself at one point of being the proverbial black sheep of the family. I was so concerned with losing my “authentic self” that it inadvertently blinded me to choices I might have liked but wouldn’t even consider because they seemed on the surface to be too conforming. A few years ago, I gave up authenticity as my most important […]
August 11, 2022
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3.9 min read
Mindfulness
How free are you really?
I spent the last few days up in Taos in the mountains on vacation, desperately trying to keep up with my energetic husband on the high mountain trails. As I was huffing and puffing up the slopes of Wheeler Peak at 13,200 feet, one has some time to think deep thoughts, the alternative is to be consumed with fear about sliding off the mountain. And as the 4th of July holiday passed, it inspired me to think about freedom, and what is means to be truly free. There are things like freedom of speech, freedom of religion, the types of rights contained within our constitution. And then there are the more subtle elements that lie within the recesses of our minds. Because when you really start to think about what it means to be free, quite often, the inhibitor of our freedom lies within. Fixation on the Future To what extent do I really have control over my thoughts? Or am I a slave to anxiety, negativity, burnout? Often each day we’re locked in unconscious patterns of thought. Our focus and attention are hijacked. We forget our innate self-worth and often fixate on accomplishments and accolades as proof that we are worth something. Am I good enough? Am I smart enough? Have I accomplished enough? Will I ever have enough time to get everything done? We worry unnecessarily rather than focus on the moment we are in. We float through our day, half present, consumed by the thoughts in our head, not really connecting with others, not really enjoying the moment, or appreciating where we are at, because we’re so consumed by where we need to be. Once we get to where we think we need to be, we’re consumed by a new need, a new want. A new client, a new project, a new job, a new career. Because unfortunately when we’re fixated on the future, there’s no end in sight. Our needs and wants are unlimited. No wonder we’re so exhausted. Fixation on the Past Or maybe we’re ruminating on the past. Which can often be a recipe for depression. I should have done that differently. I shouldn’t have had that conversation that way. I messed up. I made a bad decision. If I knew then what I knew now… But the point is you didn’t. What are you holding onto from the past? How is holding onto this limiting your capacity to feel fully free? One of the principles of my coaching philosophy is “It’s impossible to make a mistake.” This is often difficult for many folks to grasp. We think about people we’ve wronged, bad decisions we’ve made, tests we’ve screwed up on. The list is long. But when you really get down to brass tacks and you think about those moments, you didn’t set out to “make” a mistake. Typically, you did the best you could in that moment with the level of consciousness you had. Or maybe instead of shame it’s anger and resentment […]
July 6, 2022
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4.2 min read
Mindfulness
What I did today instead of “Working”
Today I took a couple of calls, one with my IT guy regarding my new website we’re working on, and another with my coaching supervisor. She recommended the book, True Yoga, and I decided a bit of spiritual enlightenment was in order. Put down the to do list I stopped what I was doing, put down my to do list and started reading the book. As I read, I’m sitting out on my balcony, which overlooks a greenbelt here in Austin. I’m hearing the gentle hum of my next-door neighbor’s air conditioner and it’s so soothing, I’m rocked in my chair like a baby. My cats Bijoux and Beaux are lying at my feet, and the birds in the trees watch them ever so carefully. They chirp their nervous warning chirps, and the kitties silently watch on. I just heard a boat pass by on lake Austin, and even see a few patches of the blue lake through the copious leaves of the oak trees in the greenbelt. What do you notice? I notice the fig tree which we initially thought was dormant is in full swing, its fruit is ripening in the hot Texas sun. I notice my breath, in and out, slow, and steady, and my body relaxing after the stresses of the week. I notice the wind on my skin, somehow cool and refreshing as I sit in the shade in the dirty white sundress I’ve donned, I feel the lightness of the material as it rests peacefully and lightly atop my tan skin. I think about how I should wear white more often. I notice the plants on my balcony are growing more than I wished them to. And I marvel I didn’t notice it earlier. I hear a dog barking somewhere in the greenbelt. I feel the beating of my heart in my chest. I notice how beautiful the sunlight is as it streams through the treetops and warms and radiates energy in the plants in my yard, the flavor of my herbs: rosemary, oregano, sage, mint, basil, more pungent and sweet for its strong rays. I notice the pink ping pong ball shaped flowers of a plant I bought outside HEB the other day and hastily threw into a planter. The bees dive gleefully and the butterflies swarm, attracted to its peppermint pink fauna. I feel the joy of resting peacefully in my body, as I read about the true meaning of yoga, the yoga sutras, the point that less is more. The fact that the simple things in life are the things most worth experiencing. The joy of boredom and the creativity it inspires if we just allow ourselves to rest blissfully in it. The simple pleasure of sitting peacefully in this vessel of a body. resting in the sheer joy of being And so here I rest blissfully, in the sheer joy of being. I write this blog post, quickly, carelessly, one word after another onto the page, not caring about the […]
June 10, 2022
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3.1 min read