Leadership
Know your worth if you want to master your leadership
Every once in a while, I ask a client a very interesting question – “What gives you your sense of self-worth?” I’m often met with a blank stare. What usually prompts me to ask that question in the first place, is the coaching client is struggling with one of what I call the 3 reactive traps. These are the places we go to when our sense of identity or worth is threatened, our amygdala gets hijacked, and we feel we are under attack. The Three Reactive Traps Approval – I define my self-worth based on whether people like me and approve of me. I aim to please and will turn myself into a chameleon. Whatever I think the other person wants and needs I’ll be! Boundaries, what are they? It’s more important that I do whatever it takes to win someone over. Recognition and appreciation – it’s more than a nice to have, it’s a must. It’s my drug. It’s only then that I’m safe. Conflict is scary and I’ll do anything it takes to avoid it. Conflict is for difficult people. I’m a people person. I’m flexible. Other people do conflict. I do what it takes to make it work. Knowledge – I define my self-worth based on my smarts. I’ve got the answer – so you’re better off listening to me. If you don’t, I’ll tell you defensively or with an air of arrogance why you are wrong. You’re criticizing my work? No way! How dare you! It’s not my fault, someone else is to blame. Or apathy is the name of the game when I’m feeling challenged or ignored — I just can’t be bothered, you didn’t listen to my advice, so I’ll stay away and disengage. The project is doomed anyway, and I don’t want any part of it. The less I’m associated with this crappy piece of work, the better off I am. You made a mistake? I’ll be the first one to point it out and only highlight only the negatives. If someone receives the feedback badly? Who cares? Most people just aren’t that good at their jobs and they can’t take criticism. Accomplishments – I define my self-worth based on my achievements. I’m out to prove that perfectionism isn’t an illusion, and I will get there or die trying (and take the entire team down with me in the process). If the proverbial ‘you know what’ hits the fan, no problem, I’ll just do all the work. And if I think about it, it’s easier if I do, because then I know it will be done right. You have an idea on what would work best? Forget it – we don’t have the time and it’s better if you just do what I say. Celebrating success – what’s that? It’s on to the next thing! There’s always something next to do and we can’t drop our pace. It’s about getting ahead. I need to get ahead and prove how successful I am. The […]
May 26, 2023
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6.5 min read
Career Coaching, Emotional Intelligence, Well Being
Feeling stuck? Learn to recognize the pesky voice of your inner critic.
There’s often a disconnect between what we want and where we find ourselves in this journey called life. Maybe you come up with an idea of something to try or to learn, but you find yourself quickly dismissing it or finding reasons to rationalize why it would never work. We often mistakenly perceive these things as a lack of motivation. “I guess I just didn’t want it enough. But when I find the right thing, I’ll know it because I’ll suddenly be motivated and filled with an intense passion!” Wrong. Motivation doesn’t just fly out of the air when you find the right thing. There is no right thing by the way. Cultivating motivation and passion has a lot more to do with what voices you’re letting speak inside that crazy thing called your head, rather than the specific thing that you’re focused on. In my experience as a coach, folks typically are stuck for one of two reasons. The answer lies in the source of the stuckness, and whether it has to do with an outer block or an inner block. What is an outer block? An outer block is an external constraint or barrier that gets in the way of a person achieving their goal. It’s something that needs to be planned for, managed, and actively worked. Let’s say I’m thinking of making a career transition, and I want to move into finance. Education will obviously be a barrier to me achieving this goal if I know nothing about numbers. So identifying a course or a program to enroll in, using time management skills to plan for this course, budgeting for this course will be key. Outer blocks are relatively straightforward and easy to coach. The problem is that most of us suffer from inner blocks when there is a disconnect from where we currently are to where we want to be, when we feel stuck or are lacking motivation. The sinister world of the inner block and the inner critic In my time as a coach, I’ve never met a client (including myself) who didn’t suffer from inner blocks and the curse of the inner critic. An inner block is a deep-seated belief that who we are and what we are just isn’t good enough and will never be enough. We all have an inner critic. Mine’s name is Gertie. Here she is: Gertie loves to fly around my head at warp speed and bump into things. She squeals with glee as she yells, “You don’t work hard enough Shelley!” Deep down Gertie knows that I’m lazy and I’ll never do what it takes to finish that new initiative or project. That online leadership academy I’ve been thinking about building and piloting – What a silly pipe dream! And then I start thinking to myself, “Well, maybe it wasn’t that important after all. Maybe I just didn’t want it that bad.” Or maybe I do, and I just allowed myself to get derailed because the inner critic […]
May 8, 2023
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5.3 min read
Emotional Intelligence, Well Being
How to Feel Your Feelings – The Simple Thing We Never Learn
Over the years I’ve heard the phrase, “You’ve got to feel your feelings,” so many times I could choke. It’s a popular phrase now, way extended beyond mere psychology and coaching circles. It’s almost as common as “living your best authentic life,” which also elicits an eye roll from me. How we hide from our feelings Feeling your feelings sounds simple, but most of us have no real understanding of how to do it. And the guidance out there on this front is hazy at best. A lot of this has to do with the fact that we don’t often have good role models on this front. I’m reminded of that 70’s musical classic, “Don’t cry out loud.” Words, unfortunately, that many of us have decided to live by. Furthermore, most of us think we are feeling the difficult emotions when they come up, but we’re really not. We’re fooling ourselves. This is because when difficult emotions do arise, the fight or fight mechanism gets triggered, our amygdala gets hijacked and rather than do the hard work of leaning into the actual feeling, we lean unconsciously instead into a coping mechanism, which could look something like one of the following options: So, what to do instead? The answer to how to feel your feelings lies is understanding what your default tendencies are and making a conscious choice to do something different. 2. Say yes to the emotion – Pat Rodegast (representing the teachings of Emmanuel) writes, “So walk with your heaviness, saying yes. Yes to the sadness, yes to the whispered longing. Yes to the fear. Love means setting aside walls, fences, and unlocking doors, and saying yes … one can be in paradise by simply saying yes to this moment.” The instant we agree to feel fear or vulnerability, greed or agitation, we are holding our life with an unconditionally friendly heart. We are accepting the present moment as it is. 3. Connect with the feeling in your body – Is it nervousness in the pit of your stomach? Is it anger and frustration in your forehead or shoulders? Is it sadness and grief that hangs heavy in your heart? Connect with the feeling in your body, lean into the experience of it and breathe deeply as you allow yourself to experience it. I find that once I’ve connected at this level the experience of the emotion typically passes rather quickly and it feels almost as if it’s moving through my body. 4. Show yourself loving compassion – I find it’s sometimes helpful to whisper out loud, “I’m feeling scared right now and it’s okay. I’m feeling resentful right now and it’s okay.” The trick here is to acknowledge what’s happening with loving compassion towards yourself, not to make the emotion go away. The only way it will go away is once you’ve accepted it fully and embrace the sensation. Coaching questions for thought: Shelley Pernot is a leadership coach who is passionate about helping her clients discover their […]
April 28, 2023
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5 min read
Authenticity, Emotional Intelligence, Life Direction and Purpose
The Joy of Being Average
“You know what I’ve realized? I’ve concluded that it’s okay to just be average.” I heard this from a client a few weeks ago. He continued on to say, “For so long I’ve been worried about my image. What others thought about me. I would leave every interaction wondering whether I’d said the right thing. Worried that I didn’t. Worried about the interaction. Did I dazzle them enough? Wondering if they were seeing the smart and successful attributes in me that I wanted them to see. I had to get them to realize I was special, a star. Was I successful in getting the sale or the deal? Wondering how if it hadn’t gone well, how I could later manipulate the situation to get the outcome I wanted.” (We all do a version of this, just in case you were wondering if this is unique.) “Sounds exhausting.” I replied. “Extremely.” He confirmed. “And now you’re realizing it’s okay to just be average. How does that feel?” I asked. “I feel free.” I smiled. It reminded me of the moment when I realized it too. And the feeling of serenity and intense peace that came with it. I was so jazzed about the revelation that I even broke out into poetic genius and wrote a poem about it – The Joy of Being Average. It wasn’t a very good poem. It didn’t even rhyme. I even tried to find it to insert it into this blog because I thought that would make me look quite clever, but my filing system must be pretty crap because it’s disappeared. But I swear I wrote it. The Pursuit of Special is Stressful The image management aspect of trying to prove ourselves is exhausting. I got told growing up I was smart. I was special. I believed it. I so wanted it to be true. And it was all very well intended appreciation meant to lift me up from family members, teachers, friends and colleagues. But then I had to prove it. Then I had to live up to it. I spent a lot of time thinking about it. My image, who I wanted to be, who I wanted people to think that I was. An international woman of mystery, a courageous trailblazer who had conquered the globe and lived and worked in multiple countries, started my own successful businesses – twice. I carefully crafted and perfected these stories, used to spend a lot of time thinking about them for when I would give a speaking engagement. It had to be just right. It had to dazzle the audience. I had a whole wall in my office filled with degrees, certifications, accomplishments. I ran out of room for them eventually and started putting them in the bathroom. It’s not a surprise I did this. It’s not a surprise my client did something similar. Our context sets us up for it, and we unconsciously fall straight into the trap. If you look on social media it’s […]
February 21, 2023
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4.2 min read
Emotional Intelligence, Well Being
What We Can Learn From the Groundhog
It’s been an interesting week here in Austin, Texas. The first ice storm of 2023 rained down on the city this week and considering the driving skills of most Texans in ice, we have all been ordered to stay put in the safe recesses of our homes (assuming you have power, and if not it’s every man for himself…). The Makings of One Massive Frustration Funk Not being able to leave the house for several days already had me in a funk. We extroverts need to be let out of our cage. Then a client offsite I had so carefully planned got cancelled due to covid. There went my perfectly orchestrated client schedule and my trip to New Orleans I was so looking forward to that just happened to perfectly coincide with Mardi Gras (Throw me some beads, Mister!). Unfortunately, no new beads for me this year. Add to that a 5-day migraine which started on Monday and is only letting up now, and it’s fair to say I haven’t been an easter basket of joy these past few days. My consolation had been old episodes of Married at First Sight (it’s addictive, I swear!) until we lost internet, so now I’ve been forced to work on this blog given I can’t stream anymore. And I’m mad about that. I need to know if Sonia says yes to Nick in season 4 of my show…if I were in her shoes, it would be a big resounding NO. This morning tensions came to a peak, no yoga for almost a week, and I found myself in what I often refer to as an emotional loop of doom – an ongoing diatribe that repeats in one’s head like a bad Def Leppard song. It’s easy in these moments to feel like you’re right back where you started. I was down on myself and life in general. I’m never going to figure these migraines out. Rescheduling the offsite is going to put my work back with these clients, it’s going to jeopardize the progress we’ve made. Why are these jeans so damn tight! Why does the internet hot spot on my phone not work! My ISP sucks! Why did the cat just pee inside in the pot of succulents – Jesus! And then my thoughts went to an even darker place. What’s the point of any of this! Does anything I do even make a difference! You know that sticky, restless feeling when you’re mad with everyone and everything including yourself? You can’t focus, you rush from task to task to keep yourself busy but nothing seems to help? Yes, I was there. And coincidently yesterday was Groundhog Day. A coincidence I think not! 3 Simple Tactics to Fight Frustration and the Curse of the Groundhog So I sat down at my computer and forced (yes forced) myself to do 3 simple things that I’ve often advocating my clients do (yes it is hard at times to practice what you preach!): Coaching Questions […]
February 3, 2023
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4.1 min read
Authenticity, Motivation
The Problem with Success
2022 was big. Big for me at least. Biggest revenues, biggest number of clients. Biggest number of challenges I had ever taken on. Explosive growth on the personal and on the professional front. I don’t think I had ever felt as comfortable in my role as a career and leadership coach, as a leadership facilitator, a mentor coach. The pressure was high, but I was enjoying it for the most part. I was flying high. I had finally arrived! Then I Crashed and Burned And then something strange happened at the start of this year. I started hesitating before sessions with clients. I started second guessing my reactions to things, the words coming out of my mouth, my interactions with people. Did I show up with a compassionate open heart??? Maybe I’m being too hard on them…Maybe that thing I just said was really stupid…What a lame question! I’ll never be as good as a facilitator as X. I started thinking I had lost my edge. And then I wondered if I had ever found it to begin with. I stopped the diatribe and instead started to ponder why – why these thoughts? Why am I torturing myself? It reminded me of when I was a fledging yogi, at yoga teacher training in LA. One of the opportunities of said yogic experience was being forced to listen to our esteemed guru rant on about any number of topics for hours on end. But one rant stood out, where the guru was talking about achievement. “Achievement is nothing. Anyone can achieve anything they want to. Maintaining it over time, now that’s a different story. That’s near impossible!” Achievement versus Maintenance I think he was on to something there. And then it dawned on me what was causing me to hesitate. To second guess and doubt my every move. The gnawing feeling that I didn’t have what it takes to go the distance. The success was a fluke. An anomaly. And what was hiding in the wings (although very cleverly disguised) was my inner critic. Whispering soft things in my ear like, “You should know this already. Someone with your level of training wouldn’t be hesitating right now. If you were emotionally intelligent you wouldn’t be over-reacting right now.” I spent this morning in tears, having a good cry. (Crying can be extremely therapeutic if you’re so inclined to try it…) I made a list of all the things I’ve been struggling with (it was a long list in case you were wondering). All the things I didn’t think I had gotten “right” lately. And then I just let the tears flow. Tears of forgiveness for all the things I haven’t navigated well over the last few months. Things maybe I got wrong. Or maybe I didn’t get perfect. Because no matter how long I’ve been doing this coaching and training gig, I still: This list could go on and on by the way. And I still just allowed the tears to […]
January 10, 2023
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4.4 min read